Victoria Beckham Unveils Her Struggles as a Pregnant Spice Girl

SPICE GIRL SHOCKERS: VICTORIA BECKHAM OPENS UP ABOUT HER TUMULTUOUS PAST IN NEW NETFLIX DOCUSERIES

In a candid and revealing new Netflix docuseries, Victoria Beckham spills all about her time as a Spice Girl, including the loneliness she felt after the group disbanded and the devastating impact it had on her self-esteem. The former pop star, now a fashion mogul and devoted wife to David Beckham, takes readers on a journey through her highs and lows in the explosive three-part series.

It's no secret that Victoria was an integral part of the Spice Girls phenomenon, but few knew just how much the group meant to her. "The Spice Girls changed my life," she confesses in the docuseries. "They made me accept who I am and what I am and how I look." Her bandmates, Mel B, Mel C, Geri Halliwell, and Emma Bunton, not only became like sisters to her but also helped her find her true self.

But it was during her time as a Spice Girl that Victoria's insecurities began to surface. "I think I'm more eccentric than I ever really realised," she laughs, recalling the infamous audition where she performed Mein Herr from Cabaret at just 19 years old. Her quirky choice of song raised eyebrows among her peers, but it was also a testament to her unique spirit.

Fast-forward six years and the Spice Girls' explosive breakup in 2000 left Victoria reeling. "I went from being up here with The Spice Girls, being on tour, traveling the world, everything was so fast, we were like a tornado then all of a sudden it stopped," she explains. The transition to wife and mother was jarring, especially as she navigated her new role as a newlywed and mum to young son Brooklyn.

In an intimate conversation with David Beckham, he reveals that he didn't realize the extent of his wife's loneliness during this period. "I thought she'd be okay," he admits. "But she wasn't patient enough for a break." Victoria candidly shares how she felt isolated in Manchester, far from her family and friends. "It was so extreme, one minute I'm spreading the word of girl power and then the next minute, I'm a wife in a flat, not really having any friends."

David's football career was at its peak during this time, but he notes that Victoria's struggles weren't immediately apparent to him. "I didn't see it," he admits. "But looking back, I can see how hard she must have been working to try and stay positive." The couple's conversation is a poignant reminder of the challenges they faced as individuals and as a team.

As a Spice Girl, Victoria also had to navigate the pressures of performing while pregnant with her eldest son Brooklyn. "I was in Miami when I got pregnant," she recalls. "It was August, it was so hot, and I was in a PVC catsuit – not exactly the most comfortable attire for morning sickness!" She reveals how her wardrobe had to be adjusted daily as her baby bump grew.

But it's not just the Spice Girls era that Victoria has been hesitant to revisit. Her solo singing career, which included the album Out of Your Mind with Dane Bowers, left her feeling vulnerable and exposed. "People were questioning what I was doing," she admits. The constant scrutiny took a toll on her confidence, leaving her wondering if she'd ever find her footing again.

In one particularly candid moment, Victoria confesses that she lost her way after the Spice Girls disbanded. "I became so self-conscious," she reveals. "I didn't want to smile anymore." Her usually sunny demeanor gave way to a more introverted persona, with David noting the change in his wife's behavior during this time.

"It's like she had a switch flipped," he says. "She was always smiley and bubbly when I met her, but over time, that just kind of...disappeared." Victoria nods in agreement, explaining how the constant criticism took its toll on her self-esteem.

"When people are mean, you start to believe it," she says. "And I became so conscious of being seen, of being judged. The minute I see a camera, I change. My barrier goes up, my armour goes on." This newfound wariness has stayed with Victoria ever since, leaving her struggling to connect with her true self.

In the end, Victoria's Netflix docuseries is a powerful exploration of her journey from pop star to fashion icon. With raw honesty and vulnerability, she strips away the glamour and reveals the cracks in her armor. Will this be the moment that sets her free?

Victoria Beckham: The Docuseries is streaming on Netflix now.